I am trying.
Okay, I am trying to be better in many ways. But, I feel like all my efforts are worthless.
I don't know if I am the only one who feels this way or other people also feels the same way I do. Who doesn't want to live good? No vices, no foul words, and regularly providing for the family. Sounds good right? Well, living good is not easy and not fun at all. It all comes with many sacrifices.
Everything seems not enough.
Sometimes, I wonder, I think it is just better to enjoy myself and focus for my own good. Well, unfortunately I cannot turn my back from the people I care.
I've lost a lot. Mostly, time.
At my age, I should have travelled different places already. But, if I did that, the people I care might not have food on their table.
Too much complaining?
Yeah, probably. Well, you see, we are not all the same. Yes, I complain, but, I always think for ways to solve certain problems.
Is everything worth it?
To be honest, I do not know. We only have one life and I also want to live my life to the fullest, unfortunately, I am binded by many shackles in life.